up and down
For so long it seemed I was down just about every day. Now it seems to be every other day. One day I’ll feel fabulous, the next I feel like crap again. I suppose I should be thankful for the improvement, and I am thankful, but it gets really frustrating on the days I don’t feel so great. There’s nothing different between yesterday and today except for the way I feel. Nothing bad has happened. I actually got 8 hours of sleep last night. I haven’t had a whole lot to do today. I get to hang out with friends tonight. Really I should be in a pretty good mood today.
I guess that’s one of the mysteries of depression. There often isn’t a rhyme or reason to it. It just happens sometimes. Thank God for little steps in the right direction. Three months ago, I didn’t think I’d ever see an end to this, and now I feel like I’m really close to overcoming it completely.
Actually, after writing all that, I’m in a much better mood. Just needed a little perspective, I suppose.